my

heart really hurts. i'm trying so hard.

i've started cutting again..

Y.S.B.S.L.M

figure it out if you want. idgaf if you do or not. this is how i feel, this is why i'm depressed. accept it or not. its happening.

if i see you again, i'm going to fuckin kill you. you just wait you shady son of a bitch. better hope i don't fuckin see you anywhere fuckin pussy. i don't give a fuck what you say, you're full of shit. lyin to everyone. you don't even know her nigga, don't act like you're all that. i don't give a fuck what you do at school, what backup you got, whatchu say you are, whatchu say you have respect for. you're the biggest piece of shit ever. stop fuckin lyin to everyone, even the ones you care about.

heres a hint. the highest number is 26, / = space. figure it out.

251521185/1920118209147/2015/1215195/135. 415/251521/522514/31185? 920/1921185/4155191420/195513/129115/920. 4151420/10211920/2051212/135/251521/415/,22120/1981523/135. 415/251521/522514/1851129265/251521185/82118209147/135? 238120/131202051819/1315185/2015/251521? 135/1518/20524209147/101514? 25518/9/11141523/23815/208120/292038/919. 81523/315135/2515211212/2052420/8913/69181920/22120/14522518/135? 415519/85/135114/1315185/2015/251521/208116/9/415? 20812019/1851121225/1981425/156/251521. 19518915191225. 208919/1851121225/821182019/135/1/121520. 211420912/251521/19201516/141520/15141225/20524209147/8913/,22120/20524209147/1181521143/135/,913/191215231225/22120/19211851225/6149147/6181513/251521…

part of me doesn't give a fuck anymore. you're breaking my heart.. you really are.

i'll tell you in one weeks time if you don't bother to figure this out. by then, it might be too late. idk. whatever

hope

-noun
1. the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best: to give up hope.

my life rides on this word... thats all i can do now.

happy

day 156 and 118... i hope to have you in my arms again soon..

worst night

of my life. never has it ever been so rough or hard to sleep. i'm still in shock... kinda heart broken.

my heart still hurts like hell.

pursuit of happyness

probably one of the most realistic movies in my eyes.
its fucking true.
happyness... just one thing we always pursue but never manage to fucking get.

121609. 2 months from my birthday.
fuck my life.