i look
at the stars every night when i come home now. i don't know why, its not just because i love doing it. i just feel... hopeful i guess? personally i'm not depressed anymore. but i just feel so miserable.
i wish i could help you, i really do. i'd give up everything to see you smile. its been a while since i've seen one, or gotten one from you. i wish i could go there just for one day and give it my best, but i can't. i hope things do get better for you, somehow. just look at the brightside? whatever it is.
but basically.
fuck my life.
everything is my fault and i know it. fuckkk i'm such a screwup.
i guess i'll post my day.
woke up this morning at 9, like the usual. i was expecting to go to the dealership cuz my brother asked me to go with him today, but he wasn't home. apparently his phone was dead so i didn't reach him at all. i ended up just sitting here like usual, borred as hell. after like 2 hours or so, the brother came home. i offered to take his car to the dealership and get the checkup for him so i could drive his car. guess what? i did. i drove his car all dayyy. scoree :D
i went to JS at like 1ish... my friend who was going with me to the dealership didn't get off work till 5, so i decided to wait. after walking around for a bit, i decided to go kick it with crystal.
when i got to crystals, i pulled up in front of her house waiting and her brother and his friends were just staring at me. i parked the car and got out because crystal was taking a bit longer than i thought and one of his friends was like "nice car." this kinda made me feel nice inside. i dunno, i just liked the compliment even though it wasn't my car. then my bubble burst when he said "i drive a white one." fail huh? LOL. oh well.
so i picked crystal up and we went to redbox to rent a movie. we watched Hancock. the movies not bad, but i don't get it really. theres a bunch of questions i have for it, like is it a drama or action or comedy? i really don't know. this killed like, 2 hours and it was perfect timing to go back and pick up my friend.
so i picked up my friend, went to the dealership to find out the mechanic just left. FML right? oh well. whatever. atleast i got his car all day. just now, i have to go back tomorrow morning and get that checkup.
after this fail, we went to puente hills mall cuz i had to buy some jeans. so me and jon walked into forever 21 and i knew he felt kinda awkward LOL. it was pretty funny. we split up and he ended up walking back outside and just sitting. me on the other hand though, i was looking for size 25 jeans. this worker (shes a teenage girl around 19 or so i think) asked me if i needed help. and i asked her if they had size 25 jeans. she was nice enough to try and help me. she also pointed out where all 3 normal color jeans are. while we were walking towards the black ones, i had a very strong urge to tell her. "this is kinda awkward LOL. you're helping me shop for girl jeans and i'm asking for help." but i ended up not saying it.
so i tried on the jeans, the waist felt perfect, but the legs were too skinny so i didn't buy it. i'm gunna try the size 30 guy jeans and see how they are. thing about these jeans is, the moment i tug on them like down, or anythnig tugs them down, they fall instantly LOL. but they're nice and comfortable.
anyways, i paid for the jeans and i was sweating like MADDD. it was so friggin hot in forever omg -_-. it was so gross. the lady packed the jeans in a NEON PINK bag LOL. i was like. this isn't gay at all LOL. it was pretty funny to me and jon. not everyday you see a guy wearing yellow walk across the mall holding a neon pink bag right? strawberry banana FTW.
so we drove back, ate some ramen, and just chilled. nothin special. now i'm sitting here posting on this thing feeling pretty depressed.
i hope you feel better. it kills me just hearing about you depressed. i'd be pretty devastated to see you like this when you come back =/. i'm here if you need me. trust me when i say things will get better. you just gotta believeee. and if you're not believing, well i believe it for you. hopefully it works just the same.
28.
happy day 11. (:
i wish i could help you, i really do. i'd give up everything to see you smile. its been a while since i've seen one, or gotten one from you. i wish i could go there just for one day and give it my best, but i can't. i hope things do get better for you, somehow. just look at the brightside? whatever it is.
but basically.
fuck my life.
everything is my fault and i know it. fuckkk i'm such a screwup.
i guess i'll post my day.
woke up this morning at 9, like the usual. i was expecting to go to the dealership cuz my brother asked me to go with him today, but he wasn't home. apparently his phone was dead so i didn't reach him at all. i ended up just sitting here like usual, borred as hell. after like 2 hours or so, the brother came home. i offered to take his car to the dealership and get the checkup for him so i could drive his car. guess what? i did. i drove his car all dayyy. scoree :D
i went to JS at like 1ish... my friend who was going with me to the dealership didn't get off work till 5, so i decided to wait. after walking around for a bit, i decided to go kick it with crystal.
when i got to crystals, i pulled up in front of her house waiting and her brother and his friends were just staring at me. i parked the car and got out because crystal was taking a bit longer than i thought and one of his friends was like "nice car." this kinda made me feel nice inside. i dunno, i just liked the compliment even though it wasn't my car. then my bubble burst when he said "i drive a white one." fail huh? LOL. oh well.
so i picked crystal up and we went to redbox to rent a movie. we watched Hancock. the movies not bad, but i don't get it really. theres a bunch of questions i have for it, like is it a drama or action or comedy? i really don't know. this killed like, 2 hours and it was perfect timing to go back and pick up my friend.
so i picked up my friend, went to the dealership to find out the mechanic just left. FML right? oh well. whatever. atleast i got his car all day. just now, i have to go back tomorrow morning and get that checkup.
after this fail, we went to puente hills mall cuz i had to buy some jeans. so me and jon walked into forever 21 and i knew he felt kinda awkward LOL. it was pretty funny. we split up and he ended up walking back outside and just sitting. me on the other hand though, i was looking for size 25 jeans. this worker (shes a teenage girl around 19 or so i think) asked me if i needed help. and i asked her if they had size 25 jeans. she was nice enough to try and help me. she also pointed out where all 3 normal color jeans are. while we were walking towards the black ones, i had a very strong urge to tell her. "this is kinda awkward LOL. you're helping me shop for girl jeans and i'm asking for help." but i ended up not saying it.
so i tried on the jeans, the waist felt perfect, but the legs were too skinny so i didn't buy it. i'm gunna try the size 30 guy jeans and see how they are. thing about these jeans is, the moment i tug on them like down, or anythnig tugs them down, they fall instantly LOL. but they're nice and comfortable.
anyways, i paid for the jeans and i was sweating like MADDD. it was so friggin hot in forever omg -_-. it was so gross. the lady packed the jeans in a NEON PINK bag LOL. i was like. this isn't gay at all LOL. it was pretty funny to me and jon. not everyday you see a guy wearing yellow walk across the mall holding a neon pink bag right? strawberry banana FTW.
so we drove back, ate some ramen, and just chilled. nothin special. now i'm sitting here posting on this thing feeling pretty depressed.
i hope you feel better. it kills me just hearing about you depressed. i'd be pretty devastated to see you like this when you come back =/. i'm here if you need me. trust me when i say things will get better. you just gotta believeee. and if you're not believing, well i believe it for you. hopefully it works just the same.
28.
happy day 11. (:
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